It is just a few hours till I get in my car and drive to the Seminarian Retreat for the Diocese of Trenton. It is unreal to say the least. Last year at this time I really did not see this being in my future. Thought that it was not to be. Now, a year later I pack my bags and will be heading off for the retreat. As that saying goes “ All things are possible with God”. It is sad but I really do need to keep reminding myself of that quote to often. I see it for others but really do not apply that to myself at times.
It is hard to say what I am feeling. Well, to pin point what I am feeling anyway. That seems to be the norm for this past year really. It is a mix of feelings and many happening at the same time. Even extremes of emotions like excited yet nervous, scared but ready..etc.. I have learned more to just go with the feelings then control them or even try and understand them. Must admit that it is a bit freeing at times to just let it go and be in the moment. Not to try and look ahead and lose what is in front or me. A priest said to me about this journey “ Where is the lamp to be placed? Is it at your feet or your head? If by the head it lights the room but when it is at your feet you only see so far ahead. Stay focused as the bible says “ Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light for my path”. We are to stay focused on where we are at that time and for us to see where we will go we must take that step and continue on. You will only see so far and have to trust what is ahead of you and think if you saw the whole journey and not see how God helped you during the hard times think how many times you would just stand in one spot and never move?”
This week will be that step and I can not wait to see where I will be by the end of this retreat. Please keep all the seminarians this week in your prayers.
Until later, God Bless, and keep all seminarians in your prayers each day.